New Shoes,( but no new pram.)10:05 am
Shoes, nice green shoes. I wasn't going to buy these, but egged on by Eden, they just slipped into my basket while I was ordering India a new raincoat.
It did occur to me that they would match very nicely the pram I have been looking at.
Thanks to Rachel, I've now found the pram even cheaper, locally, but I wont be buying yet. Woody and I are just not sure we can cope having it in the house, so not yet.
Life around here is pretty dull right now. I'm basically just waiting, watching the clock tick by, the days roll by, glad when it's bed time and another day has gone, not so glad when I open my eyes and I have another day to get through.
I hate living like this, in limbo, waiting for this baby, and at the same time longing for Florence.
I don't want it to be a full year since she left us, and at the same time I want the next three months over with so I can hold baby boy here in my arms.
This is coping though. My house is pretty clean, the laundry is done, the children are fed each day, and of course loved. I'm clean, make up done, hair blow dried...this is coping, and pretty much anything more is too exhausting to consider.