Three Centimetres Of Hope
11:10 amToday I felt happiness, real proper happiness, it surprised me,I didn't know it was possible.
I've been grasping tightly to some news over the past few weeks, struggling with the chaos of emotions, the nightmares, the worry.
I've compossed this post a million times in my head, not knowing what the outcome would be, and not knowing how I would feel writing this down.
All those imagined compositions are gone, because all I can tell you today is that I felt joy, simple joy, I didn't know I could.
Now I'm holding tight to the joy, and hoping, hoping, hoping.
73 comments
Dear Jeanette, You don't 'know' me, but I've been reading your blog for some time now. I stumbled on it whilst looking for a bag tutorial, and though I haven't lost a *born* baby (had 2 early mc), I am a mother of 4 and know how easily any of us could find ourselves in your shoes. I have been so touched by your posts and your honesty.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your wonderful news. Wishing you a healthy and peaceful time during the pg and beyond.
Jeanette,
ReplyDeleteYou always were one of my "heros" on TBW in terms of babywearing and DIY artistry (I'm earthboundpixie over there)...I always find you such an inspiration... and I have been reading your blog ever since Florence's birth. I just wanted to let you know how meaningful your words and openness are.
I wish you a beautiful lifetime with this baby and will continue to send love and light to you and yours.
I am sitting at my desk at work with tears of joy streaming down my face. Congratulations, dearest, dearest Jeannette. I will be sitting beside you (virtually) hope, hope hoping with everything I can.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on such wonderful news
ReplyDeleteI burst into tears at your news, tears of sheer, pure joy. A ray of light to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteIf you let us, I will take the journey with your family, holding your virtual hand. Strength, love and light to you and all your loved ones.
x
Oh my word I got covered in goosebumps when i saw the scan. Florence will be watching you from above and I am so so so happy for you
ReplyDeleteLove Sarah aka Mummyto4 (NM's)
My heart bursts with joy for you right now, Jeanette! Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteJeanette, I am stunned, so happy for you, Woody and the children. I have seen over the last five plus months, the pain in your face, your eyes. You have been inspirational in your outlook. Jeanette, because of you, my glass in now half full and not half empty. You deserve your slice of happiness in your life. You all do. Florence will never ever be forgotten by lots of people who know you. Angela xxxx
ReplyDeleteDear Jeanette, I have followed your posts on boards like TBW and Cosy Nostra for a long time and since you lost Florence I have been reading your blog and marvelling at your strength and dignity but somehow never knew quite what to say, everything I composed seemed so futile and stiff.
ReplyDeleteReading today's post made me exclaim out loud in joy, what fantastic news that you are expecting your sixth child.
Wishing you all the love and the easiest possible pregnancy, what a wonderful gift from Florence.
Love to you and your family.
Clare (mum of five)
oh Jeanette so many tears have been shed in these last few months but these are happy and hopeful ones.
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Wow!! How wonderful :D
ReplyDeleteCONGRATULATIONS!!!!
Oh Jeanette,
ReplyDeleteWhat wonderful wonderful news!
Lizzy xx
Wonderful news!
ReplyDeleteCongrats- I am so happy to read your news!
ReplyDeleteJeanette, this wonderful news! Love to you x
ReplyDeleteSo, so happy for your joy. Congratulations *
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, I have just shed a tear for you that is fantastic news really wonderful xxx
ReplyDeleteOh, how wonderful. I have cried tears of joy for you today xxx
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ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you all Jeanette xxx
ReplyDeleteOh, joy!! Such sweet, marvellous news!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, Jeanette. Sending you all my very best wishes from Canada!
oh huge 'grats Jeanette! really really really good news!
ReplyDeleteSimply wonderful news :-)
ReplyDeleteCongratulations :-)
Jeanette,
ReplyDeleteI just got home to a wonderful phone message from Grandma and eagerly logged on to see if you had posted! Congratulations! I am so very happy for you all. When you mentioned a glimmer of hope the other day I didn't dare hope, but I did anyway. Thinking about you all. I can't wait to tell the girls they have a new cousin on the way.
Hugs and Kisses and lots of love
Julie
Lots
Congratulations :)
ReplyDeleteoh my goodness... congratulations sweetie!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, wonderful news. Hope the life of this little one brings some healing to you. Welcome, little baby 6!
ReplyDeleteI have never commented on your blog before, because I did not feel I could say anything that would in any way, shape or form help you or make you feel better. But now I just want to let you know how very, very, INCREDIBLY happy I am for you - I am crying happy tears for you today.
ReplyDeleteThis baby will have a guardian angel in Florence :) Congratulations x
ReplyDeleteI'm really chuffed for you all, Jeanette. Raising a glass to you! Lots of love xxx fi
ReplyDeleteMy Dear!
ReplyDeleteWhat great news on a snowy, grey and exhausting German day. I am sooo happy for you and your family! This is awesome, Jeanette!
And don't you even think there could be the possibility of Florence getting "forgotten" over this new baby - she won't!
Jeanette, fantastic news!
ReplyDeleteOh my!!!! I'm so very, very pleased for you! big jumping up and down on the sofa!!!!
ReplyDeleteI promise prayers in earnest that all will be well for you and babe.
Big, BIG Cyber hugs
San xxxx
the sun is starting to shine for you again.
ReplyDeleteheres to a healthy pregnancy xx
Love the scan picture. Thinking of you always.
ReplyDeleteOh Jeanette, that is such wonderful news. I wish you and Woody all the best through this new journey. xx
ReplyDeleteHow wonderful, a little baby brother or sister who will get to hear all about their big sister that they never met and have all the rest of their wonderful family to grow up with. Many blessings. xxx
ReplyDeleteOH WOW!! :DDDD *does little hand claps* I am so so happy for you guys!!! Congratulations!!
ReplyDeleteWow Jeanette that's wonderful news. Congratulations!
ReplyDeleteI'm so pleased for you Jeanette. What a beautiful picture. xo
ReplyDeleteSo so happy for you, wishing you a happy healthy pregnancy and beautiful journey x
ReplyDeleteHappy news, Jeanette! And I'm hoping with you. What a lovely way to share your news. Love the scan! xo
ReplyDeleteThis is just so wonderful, not only about baby, which is amazing but to hear you feel real happiness. May these moments of joy become ever more frequent for you.
ReplyDeleteI am so pleased and excited for you. So much love to you all
Oriana x
Your joy is mine today too. I am so very happy for you and pray for health for both you and this little blessing.
ReplyDeletesharing in your joy jeannette! such wonderful news. hope, hope, hoping right along side you. wonderful!
ReplyDeleteJeanette,
ReplyDeleteI'm sure you don't remember me, but I was on the the July 09 board on Babyworld.
I think of you often, and check out your blog every now and again.
I'm so so pleased for you to be blessed again, and that you've found the strength to make such a step in your lives.
I wish you and your beautiful family all the happiness in the world.
Helen x
Congratulations! Thinking of you even though we've never met
ReplyDeleteOh Jeanette I'm so pleased for you and your family and thrilled that you are finding such joy. Florence will be watching over you all, and I wish you a happy and peaceful pregnancy
ReplyDeleteAmber x
You don't believe in the afterlife but I do. How content little Florence will be seeing her Mummy feeling happiness seeping in again. I'm sure all she wants is for you to feel again the joy you are feeling the edges of right now. So thrilled for you. It will free you to think about and feel Florence with a lesser ache and more peace. Ashlea xxx
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ReplyDeleteOh Jeanette
ReplyDeleteWhat wonderful news for you and your family. I am probably more overjoyed for you than I was when I found out I was pg back in Nov 08 after giving up all hope of ever getting pg.
I know this will not take away your loss or any of the pain you feel following your short time with Florence but I hope in some way it helps you. There is hope on the horizon!
Take care
deanne aka grenden from BW
Such joy. Really hoping. Thank you for sharing with such a lovely title. Much love. xx
ReplyDeleteOh my word Jeanette, what a roller coaster you're on (thank you for taking us with you XX) :oD
ReplyDeleteJeanette,
ReplyDeleteYou don't know me, and I've never left a comment before - I just wanted to say congratulations and after reading of your pain with Florence, my eyes welled up with your exciting news.
xx
Jeanette, what wonderful news, joy joy joy what a beautiful start of the year.
ReplyDeleteWhat wonderful wonderful news.
ReplyDeleteHi Jeanette,
ReplyDeleteAnother BW July 09 girl!
I have been following your blog for sometime and cant believe what wonderful news!
I am so pleased for you all, I am sure Florence will be watching down over her little brother or sister
Clair x (C-J-J on BW)
Wow, what a wonderful post to read today, congratulations to you both, many, many smiles, hugs, kisses and all the love sent to you from me and what a wonderful way to start the new year xxxxxx
ReplyDeletejeanette!
ReplyDeletei too feel full of hop eand joy mto see this too!!!
Holding you all tightly i my thoughts xxxx
Jeanette - I am so incredibly happy for you. Words cant even express what I want to say...I wish I could hug you!
ReplyDeleteLove, Jess (aka PirateMama)
Congratulations :D Hope is the right word indeed.
ReplyDeleteWhen is the baby due?
Naomi
Beautiful, miraculous, wonderful! Thank you so much for sharing your news and picture. Much love Katherine xxxxxx
ReplyDeleteOh Jeanette, what an amazing start to this new year. All the very best to you and your family and your wee little one.
ReplyDeleteI think of you and little Florence often. You were such a special part of the July 09 due date group on TBW. I've missed you there. Your writings on this blog are so beautiful and touching. Thank you for sharing your struggles and hurts and joys and hopes.
Oh wow! Congratulations, I pray for as stress free a pregnancy as possible.
ReplyDeleteJeanette, I a in tears I m so happy for you.. This is wonderful news. And as always you are in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteAnother weeping tears of pure joy for you and your family. I wish you every happiness xx
ReplyDeleteZoe (yaffle from CN and various other fora over the years)xx
So very thrilled for you Jeanette. I love the picture and am overjoyed that you have finally felt some 'real' happiness. You deserve so much more of that.xxx
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness Jeanette!!!! How did I miss this? I am sooooo happy for you and the joy you are feeling. Sending you big HUGS right now!!! XXXX
ReplyDeleteWhat wonderful news. And I'm so glad that joy has found its way back into your life again, even if only in moments.
ReplyDeleteOh Jeanette, crying again over here! Congratulations to you all. Joy Joy Joy!
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What lovely news Jeanette. I heard it on the grapevine and now I see it here! Congratulations ;)
ReplyDeleteOh, that's such lovely news!! Very, very best wishes for a happy and healthy pregnancy.xxxx
ReplyDeleteblessed love to you Jeanette x
ReplyDeleteHi, I love to hear from readers, hate to think I'm talking to myself here, so don't be shy say hello!