Three Centimetres Of Hope

11:10 am

Today I felt happiness, real proper happiness, it surprised me,I didn't know it was possible.
I've been grasping tightly to some news over the past few weeks, struggling with the chaos of emotions, the nightmares, the worry.
I've compossed this post a million times in my head, not knowing what the outcome would be, and not knowing how I would feel writing this down.
All those imagined compositions are gone, because all I can tell you today is that I felt joy, simple joy, I didn't know I could.
Now I'm holding tight to the joy, and hoping, hoping, hoping.

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73 comments

  1. Dear Jeanette, You don't 'know' me, but I've been reading your blog for some time now. I stumbled on it whilst looking for a bag tutorial, and though I haven't lost a *born* baby (had 2 early mc), I am a mother of 4 and know how easily any of us could find ourselves in your shoes. I have been so touched by your posts and your honesty.
    Congratulations on your wonderful news. Wishing you a healthy and peaceful time during the pg and beyond.

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  2. Jeanette,
    You always were one of my "heros" on TBW in terms of babywearing and DIY artistry (I'm earthboundpixie over there)...I always find you such an inspiration... and I have been reading your blog ever since Florence's birth. I just wanted to let you know how meaningful your words and openness are.
    I wish you a beautiful lifetime with this baby and will continue to send love and light to you and yours.

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  3. I am sitting at my desk at work with tears of joy streaming down my face. Congratulations, dearest, dearest Jeannette. I will be sitting beside you (virtually) hope, hope hoping with everything I can.

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  4. Congratulations on such wonderful news

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  5. I burst into tears at your news, tears of sheer, pure joy. A ray of light to look forward to.
    If you let us, I will take the journey with your family, holding your virtual hand. Strength, love and light to you and all your loved ones.
    x

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  6. Oh my word I got covered in goosebumps when i saw the scan. Florence will be watching you from above and I am so so so happy for you

    Love Sarah aka Mummyto4 (NM's)

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  7. My heart bursts with joy for you right now, Jeanette! Congratulations!

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  8. Jeanette, I am stunned, so happy for you, Woody and the children. I have seen over the last five plus months, the pain in your face, your eyes. You have been inspirational in your outlook. Jeanette, because of you, my glass in now half full and not half empty. You deserve your slice of happiness in your life. You all do. Florence will never ever be forgotten by lots of people who know you. Angela xxxx

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  9. Dear Jeanette, I have followed your posts on boards like TBW and Cosy Nostra for a long time and since you lost Florence I have been reading your blog and marvelling at your strength and dignity but somehow never knew quite what to say, everything I composed seemed so futile and stiff.
    Reading today's post made me exclaim out loud in joy, what fantastic news that you are expecting your sixth child.
    Wishing you all the love and the easiest possible pregnancy, what a wonderful gift from Florence.
    Love to you and your family.
    Clare (mum of five)

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  10. oh Jeanette so many tears have been shed in these last few months but these are happy and hopeful ones.

    xxxx

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  11. Wow!! How wonderful :D
    CONGRATULATIONS!!!!

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  12. Oh Jeanette,
    What wonderful wonderful news!
    Lizzy xx

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  13. Congrats- I am so happy to read your news!

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  14. Jeanette, this wonderful news! Love to you x

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  15. So, so happy for your joy. Congratulations *

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  16. Congratulations, I have just shed a tear for you that is fantastic news really wonderful xxx

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  17. Oh, how wonderful. I have cried tears of joy for you today xxx

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  19. I am so happy for you all Jeanette xxx

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  20. Oh, joy!! Such sweet, marvellous news!

    Congratulations, Jeanette. Sending you all my very best wishes from Canada!

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  21. oh huge 'grats Jeanette! really really really good news!

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  22. Simply wonderful news :-)

    Congratulations :-)

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  23. Jeanette,
    I just got home to a wonderful phone message from Grandma and eagerly logged on to see if you had posted! Congratulations! I am so very happy for you all. When you mentioned a glimmer of hope the other day I didn't dare hope, but I did anyway. Thinking about you all. I can't wait to tell the girls they have a new cousin on the way.

    Hugs and Kisses and lots of love

    Julie

    Lots

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  24. oh my goodness... congratulations sweetie!

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  25. Congratulations, wonderful news. Hope the life of this little one brings some healing to you. Welcome, little baby 6!

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  26. I have never commented on your blog before, because I did not feel I could say anything that would in any way, shape or form help you or make you feel better. But now I just want to let you know how very, very, INCREDIBLY happy I am for you - I am crying happy tears for you today.

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  27. This baby will have a guardian angel in Florence :) Congratulations x

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  28. I'm really chuffed for you all, Jeanette. Raising a glass to you! Lots of love xxx fi

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  29. Anonymous8:21 pm

    My Dear!

    What great news on a snowy, grey and exhausting German day. I am sooo happy for you and your family! This is awesome, Jeanette!
    And don't you even think there could be the possibility of Florence getting "forgotten" over this new baby - she won't!

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  30. Jeanette, fantastic news!

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  31. Oh my!!!! I'm so very, very pleased for you! big jumping up and down on the sofa!!!!
    I promise prayers in earnest that all will be well for you and babe.
    Big, BIG Cyber hugs
    San xxxx

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  32. the sun is starting to shine for you again.
    heres to a healthy pregnancy xx

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  33. Love the scan picture. Thinking of you always.

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  34. Oh Jeanette, that is such wonderful news. I wish you and Woody all the best through this new journey. xx

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  35. How wonderful, a little baby brother or sister who will get to hear all about their big sister that they never met and have all the rest of their wonderful family to grow up with. Many blessings. xxx

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  36. OH WOW!! :DDDD *does little hand claps* I am so so happy for you guys!!! Congratulations!!

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  37. Wow Jeanette that's wonderful news. Congratulations!

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  38. I'm so pleased for you Jeanette. What a beautiful picture. xo

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  39. So so happy for you, wishing you a happy healthy pregnancy and beautiful journey x

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  40. Happy news, Jeanette! And I'm hoping with you. What a lovely way to share your news. Love the scan! xo

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  41. This is just so wonderful, not only about baby, which is amazing but to hear you feel real happiness. May these moments of joy become ever more frequent for you.

    I am so pleased and excited for you. So much love to you all
    Oriana x

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  42. Your joy is mine today too. I am so very happy for you and pray for health for both you and this little blessing.

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  43. sharing in your joy jeannette! such wonderful news. hope, hope, hoping right along side you. wonderful!

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  44. Anonymous8:53 am

    Jeanette,

    I'm sure you don't remember me, but I was on the the July 09 board on Babyworld.

    I think of you often, and check out your blog every now and again.

    I'm so so pleased for you to be blessed again, and that you've found the strength to make such a step in your lives.

    I wish you and your beautiful family all the happiness in the world.

    Helen x

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  45. Congratulations! Thinking of you even though we've never met

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  46. Oh Jeanette I'm so pleased for you and your family and thrilled that you are finding such joy. Florence will be watching over you all, and I wish you a happy and peaceful pregnancy

    Amber x

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  47. You don't believe in the afterlife but I do. How content little Florence will be seeing her Mummy feeling happiness seeping in again. I'm sure all she wants is for you to feel again the joy you are feeling the edges of right now. So thrilled for you. It will free you to think about and feel Florence with a lesser ache and more peace. Ashlea xxx

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  49. Oh Jeanette
    What wonderful news for you and your family. I am probably more overjoyed for you than I was when I found out I was pg back in Nov 08 after giving up all hope of ever getting pg.

    I know this will not take away your loss or any of the pain you feel following your short time with Florence but I hope in some way it helps you. There is hope on the horizon!

    Take care
    deanne aka grenden from BW

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  50. Such joy. Really hoping. Thank you for sharing with such a lovely title. Much love. xx

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  51. Oh my word Jeanette, what a roller coaster you're on (thank you for taking us with you XX) :oD

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  52. Jeanette,

    You don't know me, and I've never left a comment before - I just wanted to say congratulations and after reading of your pain with Florence, my eyes welled up with your exciting news.

    xx

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  53. Jeanette, what wonderful news, joy joy joy what a beautiful start of the year.

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  54. What wonderful wonderful news.

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  55. Hi Jeanette,

    Another BW July 09 girl!

    I have been following your blog for sometime and cant believe what wonderful news!

    I am so pleased for you all, I am sure Florence will be watching down over her little brother or sister

    Clair x (C-J-J on BW)

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  56. Wow, what a wonderful post to read today, congratulations to you both, many, many smiles, hugs, kisses and all the love sent to you from me and what a wonderful way to start the new year xxxxxx

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  57. jeanette!
    i too feel full of hop eand joy mto see this too!!!

    Holding you all tightly i my thoughts xxxx

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  58. Jeanette - I am so incredibly happy for you. Words cant even express what I want to say...I wish I could hug you!

    Love, Jess (aka PirateMama)

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  59. Congratulations :D Hope is the right word indeed.

    When is the baby due?

    Naomi

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  60. Beautiful, miraculous, wonderful! Thank you so much for sharing your news and picture. Much love Katherine xxxxxx

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  61. Oh Jeanette, what an amazing start to this new year. All the very best to you and your family and your wee little one.

    I think of you and little Florence often. You were such a special part of the July 09 due date group on TBW. I've missed you there. Your writings on this blog are so beautiful and touching. Thank you for sharing your struggles and hurts and joys and hopes.

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  62. Oh wow! Congratulations, I pray for as stress free a pregnancy as possible.

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  63. Anonymous7:20 am

    Jeanette, I a in tears I m so happy for you.. This is wonderful news. And as always you are in my prayers.

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  64. Another weeping tears of pure joy for you and your family. I wish you every happiness xx
    Zoe (yaffle from CN and various other fora over the years)xx

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  65. So very thrilled for you Jeanette. I love the picture and am overjoyed that you have finally felt some 'real' happiness. You deserve so much more of that.xxx

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  66. Oh my goodness Jeanette!!!! How did I miss this? I am sooooo happy for you and the joy you are feeling. Sending you big HUGS right now!!! XXXX

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  67. What wonderful news. And I'm so glad that joy has found its way back into your life again, even if only in moments.

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  68. Oh Jeanette, crying again over here! Congratulations to you all. Joy Joy Joy!
    xxxxxxxxx

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  69. What lovely news Jeanette. I heard it on the grapevine and now I see it here! Congratulations ;)

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  70. Oh, that's such lovely news!! Very, very best wishes for a happy and healthy pregnancy.xxxx

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  71. Anonymous10:52 pm

    blessed love to you Jeanette x

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