Random Stuff3:03 pm
I've been awake since 4am. I heard Woody going to the bathroom, and disturbed from a dream I was having about a range of beautiful children's dresses, including construction detail, I thought I should jump out of bed and draw some of those dresses. Woody talked me out of it.
Lying there, thinking though, and remembering each detail I realised actually some of the designs were a bit silly...though not all.
Today I drove my car! I drove to B&Q and bought some flowers, some for the front garden, and some for next to Florence's stone in our garden. I hate driving, my heart pounds, my palms sweat, and I just hate it. Woody drove home via a larger B&Q and we bought a new hoover. This one actually picks up thread off my Velcro like bedroom carpet, and it sucked out all the fluff from my overlocker in a few seconds, and on top of all that it has a smiley face, and a name!
The post arrived. Last week I finally filled in the form to receive Florence's death certificate. Sometimes I can do that stuff, and sometimes, like last week I find myself sobbing and trying hard not to let my tears stain the paper.The certificate arrived today. Our baby girl, a simple official form, her name, our names...she was real wasn't she? She did exist?
Why am I asking? I knew her, I knew her kicks and wriggles. I held her in my arms.
Now I'll file away this paper with all the others.
Just random stuff.